Every time I think life is settling down, something comes out of nowhere and slaps me in the face. So many things I have worked and hoped for here in PDX have vanished- literally- from in front of me. We had a meeting at work regarding "our future" and we got the news the 3/4 of our department is gone on 1/1/12. Gone. 4 people are out of a job, including one of my closest co-workers and the three people who became like my family during my internship. It makes me so thankful I got to keep my job, but at the same time I now know there is no future there. I took this job hoping to work my way into the jobs that just got eliminated. It makes my 600 hour internship and the last 9 months seem completely point less.
All I could think about this week has been how helpless I am. I like to be able to fix things, to make everything better and I can't. I can't get their jobs back, I can't fix the economy, and I can't say anything to make the news any easier.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change
courage to change the things I can
and wisdom to know the difference.
Mark and I went to the Blues Festival with some friends on the Waterfront for the fourth. We got to hang out in the SUN, listen to some blues, dance and see fireworks. It was a lovely evening!
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For the Fourth of July Lucy and I went on a hike in the Gorge to Wakeena Falls. It was a really awesome hike with tons of different waterfalls. I went out on a limb and let Lucy off the leash and... she was great! She didn't run off and she even stayed with me while a huge group of people walked past. Thank the Lord!!
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| Tired puppy |
All I could think about this week has been how helpless I am. I like to be able to fix things, to make everything better and I can't. I can't get their jobs back, I can't fix the economy, and I can't say anything to make the news any easier. 
