Life

Every time I think life is settling down, something comes out of nowhere and slaps me in the face.  So many things I have worked and hoped for here in PDX have vanished- literally- from in front of me.  We had a meeting at work regarding "our future" and we got the news the 3/4 of our department is gone on 1/1/12.  Gone.  4 people are out of a job, including one of my closest co-workers and the three people who became like my family during my internship.  It makes me so thankful I got to keep my job, but at the same time I now know there is no future there.  I took this job hoping to work my way into the jobs that just got eliminated. It makes my 600 hour internship and the last 9 months seem completely point less.  


All I could think about this week has been how helpless I am.  I like to be able to fix things, to make everything better and I can't.  I can't get their jobs back, I can't fix the economy, and I can't say anything to make the news any easier.  

God grant me the serenity 
to accept the things I cannot change
courage to change the things I can
and wisdom to know the difference.