So here I am.

I'm sitting here, on the eve of my last day of my internship and I am both happy and sad, nervous and excited. I am in quite a precarious position in life. I am closing one very big, important chapter in my life, and am about to start on the next one. I have just finished (as of 3 p.m. on Friday) my college career!! I have a degree!! It was a long journey. I can't believe it's over. It was not exactly a great time in my life, if fact, the darkest and hardest days of my life were during college. The darks ( broken hearts, ending friendships, crappy jobs, family drama) are no doubt overshadowed by the lights (finding my amazing friends, moving to NY and OR, travels, and the never-ending journey to find out who I am). It has been quite a journey and I have learned more about myself than I thought possible.
So i sit here, wondering what direction to take, what my next journey will be. The obvious answer would be to find a job, make some money, buy a car, find a nice boy, blah blah blah. There's a certain amount of satisfaction in that. It's the american dream, right? But there's this image in my head that once I start down this path, there's very little possibility of getting off of it. I have so many dreams, so much I want to do, places I want to see- and the 9-to-5 doesn't exactly fit into this vision. 2 weeks vacation is not enough time to swim with sharks in south africa, to climb kilimanjaro, to raft the grand canyon, or see the eiffle tower. Hell, it's not enough time for any one of those. So what's a girl to do? Sell her soul to corporate america, settle down, start investing in stocks?
Who knows. For now I am going to live my life, enjoy each day for what it is, maybe eat some cookies and see where life takes me.